Remember Lorna? She’s Chas’s sister. The one with the frog tatoo. Well she telephoned late last Sunday. Chas had asked her to call as he wanted to know if I could come and see him soon. Somewhat embarrassed I explained why I hadn’t been able to visit and told her how my cash flow had moved out without even a kiss goodbye leaving me with the awkward task of choosing food for my daughters or fuel for the car. The girls won. She offered to help with the petrol and suggested we meet the following day.
We met near her Gym in the early afternoon. She thanked me for coming and as it was my birthday offered to buy lunch which I graciously accepted. I listened quietly, over pasta and a latte, while she related her life, family and how she felt for her spiritual twin Chas.
Lorna and her brother have always shared a special bond. Their bond is Truth. Growing up together in England and migrating to Australia in their mid to late teens they always shared truth. They may have lied to others as teenagers do and often to themselves but never to one another. Loosing this closeness is what she fears most and I know Chas feels this also.
Our conversation turned toward the funeral even though we both hope that will be a long way off. Lorna wants everyone to wear an electric blue ribbon held in place by a small frog pin. Electric blue was always Chas’s favourite colour. Locating a small pin with a frog motif might be a challenge though.
After lunch we went to the respite centre. When we arrived Lorna headed for the powder room and I went up to say hi to Chas. His parents were just leaving and although he looked tired he was very happy to see me and was even more pleased when I told him Lorna wasn’t far away.
He’d been exercising his mind by reading the pages I’d given him earlier and painting various ornaments. He’d also just seen the movie Dragonfly with Kevin Costner which touched him deeply. His general exercise regime and massage therapy have been somewhat put on hold. Since giving his “Power of Attourney”, to his daughter Sue, he’s been finding it a little difficult to access the funds needed to pay for external support. It’s a big responsibility for Sue and an awkward situtation for Chas who has always been his own master.
We talked about truth and how it should be handled when it comes to talking with family. Chas remarked that he’d never really be truthful to his parents when it came to his feelings. He believed that the truth of how he felt would hurt them more than simply swallowing his feelings and keeping his pain to himself. I said “A truth delivered with love is less painful than a lie delivered over decades.”
He thought about this for a moment and said “Isn’t it better to swallow the truth and say nothing rather than hurt someone you love?” I responded by saying “Your parents have always dealt with you under the premise of the lie which only built up further resentment in you because you felt they didn’t understand. How could they understand when they were working under a false assumption? In other words – they were not dealing with the truth.”
Chas had been meaning to ask me for weeks to read a couple of passages from a book he had stashed somewhere in his room. After a brief scramble we managed to find it. The book was titled “Karmic Astrology – The moon’s nodes and reincarnation” by Martin Schulman.
As per Chas’s request I am including the excepts from the “Allegory” chapter pertaining to his and Lorna’s star signs.
Chas - Aquarius
“To you Aquarius I give the concept of future that man might see other possibilities. You will have the pain of loneliness for I do not allow you to personalize My Love. But for turning man’s eyes to new possibilities I give you the gift of Freedom, that in your liberty you may continue to serve mankind whenever he needs you.”
Lorna - Pisces
“To you Pisces I give the most difficult task of all. I ask you to collect all of man’s sorrow and return it to me. Your tears are to be ultimately My tears. The sorrow you will absorb is the effect of man’s misunderstanding my Idea, but you are to give him compassion that he may try again. For this the most difficult task of all I give the greatest gift of all. You will be the only one of My twelve children to understand Me. But this gift of understanding is for you, Pisces for when you try to spread it to man he will not listen.”
I don’t know enough about astrology to have an opinion regarding the accuracy of the material, however, in the Conclusion chapter there was this paragraph that resonated with me.
When man can see and understand his ideas, as well as the circumstances that occur in his life as part of the thread he alone is spinning, he will start to develop the substance from within that makes him real from without.